Frustrations

So, I'm in a class called "Philosophy of Peace". For this class we were to buy the professors book and read through it, go to class once a week for two hours to listen to him recite it (and sometimes start discussions), and each week answer six questions in an online forum(and by six questions I really mean about twenty, as each has nmerous "sub-questions"). Also, the questions he only posts in Valencian, which I don't happen to understand very well, so I have to wait for other people in the forum to answer the questions, hopefully in Spanish, and then try to derive what the question actually was from their answers, or have my friend translate them for me each week, when he has the time....

This is all well and good until I get to trying to answer the questions... Where is the balance between telling the professor what he wants to hear, picking a fight, and trying to answer the question as best as I can from my still-developing Christian world-view? All of this in a language whose intricacies are about as clear as mud to me, while also trying to dedicate enough time to my other classes, let alone dwelling the Word of God to continue shaping that world-view of mine... I want to answer the questions in a way that will engage the other students into thinking about the only true peace and our inability to alone accomplish what the class is attempting to guide us toward. At the same time, where is the balance between working towards peace and knowing that because of sin it will not come about through changes in government or new philosophies?

So, I spend hours trying to answer these questions, reading and rereading the text, the questions themselves (or rather a translation of them from Valencian to Spanish and then often another translation into English, though that one is only mental...), and other students' answers while eventually squeezing out something that might be recognizable as an answer, though with poor Spanish grammar and a limitted vocabulary and never to my satisfaction. I always feel as if all I've done is regurgitate the professor's own words, even while trying to do the opposite, or else not even answering the question itself.

But I have to have the questions done by tomorrow, at which point I will be assigned a two page paper to summarize the first two chapters of this very same book, along with another set of six questions, which I will have one week to complete.

Another problem is I'm terrible procrastinator, especially when I have multiple things that have upcoming deadlines. I have trouble deciding where to start, so I get lots of other things done, like cleaning my room, updating my blog, catching up with my parents on Skype, etc...

"And He has said to me, 'My grace is suficient for you, for power is perfected in weakness.' Most gladly, therefore, I will rather boast about my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may dwell in me." 2 Cor 12:9

I'm going to get back to my homework now.